And the Journey continues…

All my life i have been busy pursuing my preset goals!
Well…most of them were set by the likes of this convoluted society we live in. For e.g, excelling in academics has always been mandatory and everyone’s top priority. While goofing up academics shall by default brand one as a social stigma!
All you had to do is somehow earn the privilege of using predicates like…“is an outstanding all-rounder / athlete/ sportsman / singer /dancer / orator and you shall be entitled with a little halo on your head, making you an apple of your daddy’s eye and a social role model!!
Hence needless to say, I chose the second alternative and devoted my entire childhood to a single minded pursuit of such goals.
As i now recall, success often knocked at my door but for some reason instead of embracing it, I was more fixated on my ill-fated efforts and relinquished targets. I guess that’s what human behavior is all about.

From my kindergarten to my workplace, It has been like a never ending journey.
The goals kept changing and i kept chasing!!!

October Blues
It was last October when i met with an accident and my indefatigable chase came to a stand still. For once, I felt that there is more to life than just chasing your boundless materialistic goals. I had the time to think about my life as a whole.
Back then, life sure did look a little bias and unfair, but I guess it gets to you when you spend a couple of months on a hospital bed! (Not to forget: Sad Looking nurses only add on to your miseries)
Thankfully it did not last long and hence, I don’t feel the same way anymore. What now matters most is my connection with myself, being present and feeling blissful.
Thanks to my October blues, I have developed an insatiable hunger to learn more about life, faith and karma.

One hard fall and i realize,
It is not length of life, but depth of life.

The Quest?ons
Being idle for 5 long months, i was compelled to analyze, evaluate, appreciate and question various aspects of life. Frankly speaking, one can’t do much about it…this habit of constantly thinking, kept me away from sulking and self pitying.
Which in the long run turned out to be one hell’ova time killer!

By the end of my 5 months I was full of questions,
Few of them which still remain un-answered are:

Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

What is our purpose of existence?

 Why are you, you? 

Why isn’t there any guide to live a perfect life?

Thanks to my post accident sedentary lifestyle, i had all the time in the world to ponder over them.

Tranquilizing After Hours
Waking up early in the morning had always been a disdained problem since my childhood. Being a Sikh by religion and an Army officer’s son, I was constantly reminded about the importance and sanctity of early hours of the day. Hence, I tried my best to make an effort to exploit the goodness of sunrise, but seldom succeeded.
Instead, i developed a fond liking for the after hours. I found it to be rather soothing and pacifying. It had a weird atmospheric effect creating an aura perfect to introspect and find solace. All i had to do, was to dream with my eyes open!  Thanks to those thought provoking nights, I have evolved into a better human being.

All my questions were answered using three words!

What i had come to learn with time is that,
The very reason for our existence is our “Karma”…it acts like a link to a never ending cycle. Everything from our birth to our heavenly abode, is governed by it.
I truly believe there is a lot of unexplained stuff waiting out there to be toyed with, but we the common people refrain from doing so. Ignorant of karma, we blindly believe in delusive beliefs such as fate and luck.
It is really amusing to see  a guy winning a lottery applauding his luck while a guy caught stealing blaming it.

I guess life has its own mysterious ways…

New Found Religion!
We the tamed masses are divided into believers and non believers. For the non-believers or the masses who don’t believe in karma or the supernatural, faith happens to be the religion.

Faith is something which exists in heart of every living being by default. Our subconscious mind is driven by it.
Every night we go to bed setting an alarm for the next day, this is nothing but an act of faith.
Being unaware of what is en-stored in near future, we comfortably enjoy a pleasant present. This again is nothing but an act of faith.

Life is nothing but a fiddle..and faith happens to be the bow!


My journey of still goes on..and I intend to make the most of it.
I am glad, I rediscovered myself.
Honest Karma, True Faith & Power of Acceptance has made me stronger than ever!!  


The Mid-Course Correction

::Who decides our fate::
I know fate is defined as predetermined course of events which according to our science and literature is independent of our actions. Yet, when things don’t go as per planned or when one gets cornered in life, one can’t help but ponder about it and the above mentioned definition of fate tends to look a little farce. One starts questioning the path chosen and often asks oneself, “Who  decides my fate, If not me?”. I too belong to such a band of abashed souls, hopefully trying to seek an answer.

::God n Fate::
I have always wondered about the existence of a supernatural entity governing the cosmos. The one, which would hold us accountable for our deeds irrespective of our cast and creed.
I am not at all an atheist and hence don’t deny gods existence. Rather, i do believe in him but prefer being called an agnostic-theist as i personally can not prove his existence. Since we do not decide our fate, i am guessing it should be this supernatural entity or the so called “God” governing our life.
This random belief makes me all the more anxious to know various parameters on which our deeds are adjudged..and..the various factors which aid god in deciding our future or our so called fate.

::The Unexplained part::
Fate is something which doesn’t have a specific timeline and is dynamic in nature. Hence, It is right to say that a mans fate changes every second or that a mans fate is revealed to him second by second.

I have asked a lot of random people to throw some light on my queries and i have come across various views and explanations.
Some of them were really enlightening, but i guess adhering to them or believing in them is more of a personal choice. Few of my favorites explanations and approach are:

  • Men’s fate and nature are governed by their stars. It is the pattern and layout of the heavenly stars that play an important role on deciding the course of events in ones life. There is a pseudo branch of science (Astrology) which studies the effects of planets and other celestial bodies on human beings.

Failure and success seem to have been allotted to men by their stars. But they retain the power of wriggling, of fighting with their star or against it, and in the whole universe the only really interesting movement is this wriggle.           ~E.M. Forester

  • Fate is a resultant of Karma. Karma means action. It is also the reaction that follows on an action. The process of compensation for any given feeling, thought or deed is completely automatic. Karma, however, is ones unrestricted power of choice, and it makes sure that for every choice one makes there will be a just consequence. Hence, the law of karma is often expressed with the quote: “As you sow so shall you reap”.

Men are not punished for their sins, but by them.
~Elbert Hubbard

  • There is nothing as such as fate. Life is nothing but an autobiography and hence every person has his/her own version citing different experiences. Everything that happens in ones life is purely an aftermath of series of actions. These actions could be direct or indirect. It could be expressed as “being in the wrong place at the wrong time”.

There’s much to be said for challenging fate instead of ducking behind it.
~Diana Trilling

  • Fate is nothing but a path chosen for us by the almighty. It is his own mysterious way of making one wiser. It is this reverend almighty who holds us accountable of our deeds and hence makes us tread the necessary path in life called ‘fate’. Hence, every second of our life that we have lived is fate accompli.

You know that saying, that when God closes a door he opens a window, well, sometimes out of nowhere he’ll do you one better and he’ll kick a whole wall down.
~Ryan Murphy

::My take on it :: The Mid-Course Correction::
All of the above mentioned points are nothing but point of view of random people. Hence, everyone of them holds true for its own believer. It is not justified to outcast a particular person just because he has a different bent of mind or just because his views seem blasphemous to someone. With all respect to everybody i am not trying to be judgmental about the right approach. I respect and honour every one of them.

As nothing is proven, i intend to incline myself towards the most optimistic approach. Which happens to be the last of the above mentioned explanations.
I too have now started to believe that we are treading a path chosen by the almighty and every obstacle that we face only makes us wiser and hence, gives us a chance to correct our measures for a better future.

For e.g:  A ship is flagged off from a port with the required set of directions regarding its course. Say, after covering 100 miles they unexpectedly come across a big wave which is heading towards them. It is then entirely the Ship-Captain’s decision to either take a detour or to make a correction in its course to avoid the impact. This is what is called as “The Mid-Course correction”.
Similarly, in our lives god seldom give us chances to make such mid-course corrections. In order to steer our life in a positive direction we need to make the most of it. God has his own mysterious ways of imparting wisdom.
Like the smart people say, “There is always a catch”. We just need to decipher them.

In the bout of life:
fate is like a tough opponent who at times strikes real hard,
face him and learn from him so that next time you give him a good fight anyhow.
~ Me